final. uwarghhh~

2 hb nnt genap lah 8 bulan. hihi.

tp 2 hb tu bukan nk cte psl ats tu ek. nk cte pasal nie.

final exam start! #bunyik sound effect sket (suspens)

wish me luck guys :)

#Ya Allah permudahkan urusan ku. tenang kan aty ku sepanjang mggu peperiksaan nnt. hanya padaMu aku memohon.

aku bahagia lagi ari nie. adehhh

hee~ alhamdulillah :)

alhamdulillah. thanks ya Allah. happy nyee.

#padahal byk lagy topic tak cover nie. hewhew

gaya gaya minah arab. utk kaklong :)

sengett bengett. 

kdsi oh kdsi. mengapa msty kte berjumpa. 

R for renang :)

cik bella's

p/s: oke. rndu nk renang. rndu nk floating. rndu nk diving kat 3.5m #knon la. hee

salah

ape ek salah aku kat kau?

-______________________-''

baii 2012. haii 2013

aku rindu kau la paham.

haii :)

ayah :)

assalamualaikum wbt

ayah, adek mintak maaf.

adek dah sedar, semua ayah buat tu bersebab.

adek dah tak kesah da skg. terima kasih ayah.

#Ya Allah, lindungi kedua ibu bapaku. panjangkan umur mereka. bahagiakan mereka kerana mereka lah kebahagiaan ku dunia dan akhirat. amin~

antara cita dan harapan.

aku kena tabah hadapi cabaran.

atau mungkin 'sdikit' pengorbanan.

p/s: Allah, pls always beside me :'(

TANAK!

aku tanak balik upm

aku tanak study

aku tanak amek final

aku tanak training

aku tanak g KDSI

#huh! tanak semua~

cik bella tengok semula post dulu.

its been a year.

yes, i admit it. im still in the situation of 2nd January 2011.

but why? :'(

aku harap sangat. tapi tu semua harapan aku.
memang mimpi kalau aku kata tu harapan kau dulu.
aku tak pernah mintak jadi ratu.
mahupun insan yang kau puja tiap waktu.
aku hanya ingin perhatian, sayang yang pernah aku terima.
waktu mula-mula kita kenal dan mula mesra.
tapi tu semua hanya aku dan kenangan kita.
yang tak mungkin singgah jenguk seperti yang aku pinta.
aku akan terus berangan.
berpegangkan harapan.
mungkin kau akan sedar.
mungkin jugak tidak.
aku doakan kau bahagia.
sebahagia nya aku dulu masa kita mula-mula.
kenal erti cinta.
kenal erti waktu itu untuk kita.
hanya kita.

#kau kena kuat. kau kena tabah. aku takde untuk teman kau sepanjang masa. satu hari nnt aku akan tinggalkan kau juga.

ayah :(

frust yang teramat dalam sgt.

knp ak dilahirkan sbg anak bongsu.

astaghfirullah, tak sepatutnya ak pertikaikan.

itu kerja Allah.

tapi ayah, satu hari nnt ayah kne lepaskan jugak anak ayah ni.

cukup dah risau kan adek.

jgn risau kan adek lagi. adek dah besar.

ayah kne redha. lepaskan ank bongsu ayah ni.

It hurts so much to be ignored by someone who means so much to you.

im just tired :(

beratttt

assalamualaikum wbt

now berat cik bella 47kg

my next aim is to get 45kg and below

#chaiyok2 cik bella !

cikgu bella

assalamualaikum wbt

lagy 2 tahun. :)

Ya Allah, permudahkan aku untuk bergelar seorang guru.

p/s: harap sgt dpt praktikal mengaja kat RMC. dulu nk msuk xboleh. sbb lelaki jek. dpt mngaja kat sne pown jadi laaa. hee #hoii, cik bella~~ lme lagy. haha

Starve your ego. 
Feed your soul. 
Stimulate your mind. 
Break stereotypes. 
Overthrow the status quo.

p/s: i love nagging. sorry ppl. hee

braces III

assalamualaikum wbt

kali nie cik bella nk bebel pendek jek.

perasan kan cik bella dah tuka lagu blog? gedik sgt =.=''

anyway, bukan itu yg cik bella nk bebel kan di sini.

cik bella just nk tunjuk nie.

hihi. nk pakai wne ape lagy ye pasnie. dan utk pengetahuan semua, cik bella suke sgt rainbow style, selang seli kan getah nye. comel sgt :3 #mcmne ak nk jdik cikgu lagy 2 tahun jek lagy. tlgla buang kegedikan itu. hehe

skunk nie, cik bella pakai numb 30 ngn 09. cik bella mule2 pakai dulu numb 23. xselang seli sbb wktu tu cuak ngn doktor dye. hee

pasnie jum cik bella cube wne 29 dgn 04. mcm comel jek. :)

gigi besi -licious. =.=''

sem tigeeee

assalamualaikum wbt

alhamdulillah, abes dah sem tige cik bella kat upm nie. tak sbr nye nk abes kan lagy 5 sem kat cnie. #5sem agy? ohhh tidakkk~ hee

pasnie jmpe sem empat plak, hmm, lebih mencabar dan lebih menguji kesabaran dalam bergelar pelajar dan bakal guru #ayat BM A+. hha

so cik bella nk say TATA to sem tigee. thanks for bein nice to me. #padahal FINAL pown tak agy nie. jgn nk tata sgt la cik bella oi. hee

sem tigee nie pown best jugak sbb ad ncikR sepanjang sem nie teman cik bella and become my catalyst everytime i feelin down. thanks awk. sem depan teman org lagy ea. # oke, geli kan. dah2. ahaha

emm sebelum terlupe, sem nie penutup dye adalah ACT kat KDSI, haaa, nie tanak cte nie, btw, kne cte gak supaya korg tak tertanye2 nnty ke mana cik bella menghilang kan.#mcm la ad org tye. hee

remember the date:

14th of January 2012 until 6th February 2013, cik bella will gettin away from everything and goin for training. #paham kan training ape. hmm. sobs.

p/s: take care u'olls sume. peringatan akhir dri cik bella, jge diri, jge iman, jge aty.

kan ? 

wishes

assalamualaikum wbt.

selamat pagi sumeee~ #dgn nada yg ceria smbil tunjuk gigi dgn selebar nye.hee

tanak bebel byk kot pagi nie. just nk share mslh negara cik bella nie.

lately, cik bella rase nk berubah kot.

nk jdik pendiam #hajat dari matriks lagy. hee

nk jdik penyabar.

nk jdik pelajar yg rjen.

nk jdik seseorg yg tegas tp kurg cket bebel pasnie. #kadet msty lega bce nie. haha

anddd lastly, nk jdik anak yg solehah. insya Allah. #doakan cik bella ye.

#count every single day u left, count every single sins u made, count every good deeds u've done. count it before ''the day'' is come.

Awak, I hope your name has been wrote for me in Luh Mahfuz.

thanks ya Allah for lettin me to meet and know him. 

alhamdulillah~ :')

pls always protect him. i've decided and only u, ya Allah knows the best for me.

#ncik R, u're the best happens in my life. thanks dear.

baby baby baby ohhh. hee

mmg takkan mudah. bagiku tuk lupakan segalanya.

aku pergi. untuk Dia.

a song to remember

tinkywinky. dipsy. lala. po.

teletubbies~ hee.

p/s: thanks ncikR for the memories. im just dunno why i think i couldnt survive without you. hmm :'(

klu kte dah cube sedaya upaye tp dah itu takdir Nya.

apakan daya ku utk melawan nye.

sabar lah wahai aty.

kuatkan semangatku Ya Allah.

come on cik bella ~ hiyarghhh. :')

Oh tuhan tolonglah aku hapuskan rasa cintaku
Aku pun ingin bahagia walau tak bersama dia

assalamualaikum wbt

be strong keyh aty for all the scars i make.

for all the hurts tht ppl make to u.

for all the wishes that i couldn't make it.

for all imperfect care of u.

im sorry. tryin to be better muslimah and daughter in future, insya Allah.

Allah, pls guide me. i believe in every single plan that u had make for me always hav a good story behind that.

there's will be sunshine behind the dark cloud.

cik bella tgh sdeh.

moral down.

tanak ckp pape.

tanak komen pape.

dye no longer as my moral to stay.

should i stay or just leave?

#ya Allah, tabahkan atyku, kuatkan smngtku hadapi semua nie. T.T

ACT KDSK

assalamualaikum w.b.t

as mention above, today's post i gonna talk and bebel a lil bit about the first year training when i was in cadet. tis post actually i made it for my 'beloved' cadet so that they' re not goin to be sooooooo blurrr on that day.

#ceh, kemon dpt snior baik mcm cik bella, ptot sujud syukur paham x kadet. hee. (oke gurau)

oke, first thing yg korg kene prepared sblm g sne adalah dari segi fitness and mental korg #aiyakkk, awat kuaq bhse melayu nie. hee

mostly, we will train at the KDSK about a week or 2 week, it depend to the KD, during my time, it only takes about 10 days in KDSK as UM goin to start lect early compared to UPM and UiTM. so, were lucky enough i guess. hee

for ROTU Navy UPM, before u're goin to KDSK there will be a PRE-ACT which be held in KOSASS. during the PRE-ACT, u're trains a lot of thing which include ur physical fitness, knowledge about navy, mess ethics (i loikeee.hihi) and whatsoever tht u're goin to practic and ask at the KDSK. as usual there will be round for every night. not an ordinary round its a STANDARD round. (sila kutuk blkg ye. hee) standard round tht means ur room must be clean and ur thing must be clear,  all must stndardize and toilet in dry condition oke? (mentally enough or not cadet?) hihi

at KDSK, u'll share ur room with other cadet in different university. seriously this is fun as u can get a new friend, u can see different attitude, andd most important thing u can improve urself and learn to better from other cadet. u r wht u thinks, be the best oke! #semangat nye pn bella kaw nie, haha

the room will be like this. pls ignore the rubbish tht splattering around. hee. tis pic taken during the CO parade, so we dun hav time to clean it all, and were lucky, there is no round. yey~ #padahal stay semalam jek nk round bagai da knp. haha

bilik nie 2 kali cik bella duduk. mse ACT kadet ngn kwd CO ritu,  tak sgke cepatnye la mse berlalu. hihi

tis is the toilet will be look like

dryyyyyyy oke. >:(

the mirror

make sure clean oke. tu contoh mirror yg akn di pick up, andd yet hell are waiting for you. haihh

big enough ryte to get pose in front of it. #believe me, u don even hav time for tht.


andd finally,

len bebeno mukenye ble beruniform kan. lalala~